10 weeks and counting...

Today marks 10 weeks, and we are praying everyday that we are getting one day closer to feeling better. Today was another rough one, but it was also my first day staying home. Last week was my last week at work and though it was very bittersweet, I was just so thankful to sit around when I felt the constant urge to run to the bathroom. Baby is growing, and I can't believe all that starts happening. He or she can now bend and kick his legs, he can swallow fluids and though I can feel it yet, baby is supposedly moving around like crazy.

Tomorrow is our first appointment and I am so excited. Hoping to hear the heartbeat and it will be so nice to chat with my doctor and ease some of my anxiety!

Overall not a lot to update.. still sick everyday, still so thankful for this little peanut and still growing in size everyday.
I sure do love this tiny little person.

9 weeks!

Though I haven't done any posts on pregnancy updates yet I figured why not start now! :) Just a little fun and I think it will be great to look back one day!

Today is: August 28th 2012


How far along: 9 weeks

Total weight gain: 4 pounds.. :/

Baby is the size of: A grape, 1" and about 0.7 oz.

What's going on with the babe: Lots going on this week! Baby is no longer an embryo, but is now a fetus! Essential body parts are accounted for. This week, baby's heart finishes dividing into the four chambers, and the valves start to form, as do his/her tiny teeth! Organs, muscles and nerves are kicking into gear. External sex organs are there, but wouldn't be distinguishable for a few weeks, yet. Eyes are fully formed, and eyelids are fused shut until about 27 weeks. Baby has tiny earlobes, and the mouth, nose and nostrils are more distinct. The placenta is developed enough to take over now. So much happening and its just amazing!

What's going on with the mama: My tummy is starting to feel hard and I actually feel more pregnant then just "bloated".. pretty exciting.


Baby is a: Boy or a girl. Long ways to go till we can find out!

Maternity clothing: So far I've just worn some maternity leggings my mom got me..they were so comfortable and I think it won't be long before I need some new jeans!

Sleep: This week hasn't been bad...getting up once a night to pee, my dreams are getting a little crazy which wake me up once and awhile but overall not bad!

Movement: It's happening, but it's too soon to feel it, yet.

Cravings/Aversions:  Still too sick to have a lot of cravings but when I'm feeling ok and the zofran is working well I do seem to mostly crave salty items such as chips or chex mix. Chips and salsa always sounds good but it has given me a little heartburn so I might try to watch that!

Symptoms:
- Energy is slowly fading..last week I didn't notice a huge difference but this week I'm noticing how exhausted I feel.
- Nausea. Zofran is still helping, for the most part. I feel worst in the morning, and sometimes the medication doesn't help but overall as long as I take Zofran I am able to do ok.
- Bloating. Finally fading some..turning into a baby bump and not so much bloating!
- Metallic taste. One symptom I haven't really noticed..I don't know if I'm too nausea to notice or if I just don't have it..either way, I'm ok not noticing it!


The best moment(s) of this past week:
- Getting closer to our first appt and having a few better days where I don't feel so sick!

I'm looking forward to:
My first "OB" appointment with Kevin! :)


Overall this pregnancy has been very difficult but I'm just so thankful for this little life inside of me. Trying to remain joyful and focus on the good parts! Thanking God for being the creator!

Oh happy day.

How can I even grasp the fact that the Lord and Creator is the one who spoke this baby into motion?
As I struggle with constant all day vomiting and nausea I easily forget that there is a miracle growing inside of me. As I called the OB doctor today and sounded like a complete first time hot mess mom, she sweetly reminded me that this too will pass, she told me it is overwhelming and scary, but I will get throw it. She did however recommend that I get a prescription to ease my sickness and I am praying that it gives me some relief.
Either way, with my pure exhaustion and fear of whats happening to my body I can forget so easily that something beautiful is going on. God is making a life, He is forming this tiny little person inside of me..and the most amazing part is, He doesn't even need me to do it.
I've been trying so desperately to remain thankful, but between the hormones and me hanging my head over the toilet every five minutes it has been so difficult.
So today I am just going to remember the pure joy that this baby is and will bring us.

I mean oh my goodness..right now my baby has eyelids, he or she has sweet little hands that are starting to form and even as I deal with all this physical and emotional struggle..my sweet baby has doubled in size from last week and is now the size of a blueberry. :) So here's to all you moms out there that have gone through  the very same thing..you are all hero's in my book.

Oh my sweet baby!

 For you formed my inward parts;

you knitted me together in my mother's womb.

 I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.

wonderful are your works;

my soul knows it very well.

My frame was not hidden from you,

when I was being made in secret,

intricately woven in the depths of the earth.

Psalm 139: 13-15

July 26th 2012 will be a day Kevin and I will remember forever. That is the day we found out we were expecting out first baby. I was overwhelmed, overjoyed, and prancing around like a mad woman. I didn't believe it, so my sweet hubby drove me to the store to buy more tests. After 3 positive tests and a good talk with the sweetest nurse over the phone we decided..pregnant. Kevin just kept smiling, and it was fun to see him excited!
:)

We talked about how we wanted to tell our parents and when we should do the announcement and we had both decided that this was a joyous beautiful time in our life and we would share it right away. Why not waste any time celebrating baby, right?!
That Saturday we bought a "happy birthday grandma" card for both of our moms since their birthdays were in July and I was so excited to share the news. I knew they would both be just full of happiness and I couldn't wait to see the reactions. My family came first and it was such a blessing to tell my mom while my grandparents were still in Wisconsin. They were all giggling and screaming and everyone was SO happy. I just feel so blessed by this tiny little person already, I know it will only get better...but I can't believe how much I love this baby. Sweet one has already changed me.

We got just as much screaming and giggling from Kevin's mom and telling everyone this exciting news has been the best part so far!

Currently I am almost 7 weeks pregnant and I am dealing with almost every symptom in the book. I eat pickles like they are going out of style, I eat EVERYTHING like its going out of style and I am sick almost constantly. I have heard about "morning sickness" my whole life..but never did I imagine it would feel like this. Once again I am so, so thankful that my sickness is a great sign baby is growing strong and healthy and I'm so happy about that but so far being pregnant has been extremely difficult. We are going to pray a lot and continue to try every tip in the book to help ease this sickness.
As I was cooking dinner tonight I was once again reminded that every blessing comes from the Lord and that as I speak He is knitting my sweet child together in my womb. So even on the hard days I need to remember that He is enough, and nothing can steal my joy without my permission.

So sweet baby..keep growing, I will be sick every day for the rest of my life if it means you are happy and healthy.

A huge thank you to my sweet friend for taking this pictures and capturing such beautiful moments in our life. Please go check out her website..she truly is amazing. 

Kayla Sue Photography

Summer Nights

we love being together, and we love taking walks....tonight, we did just that.

sunshine

One of my absolute favorite things about our new apartment is the windows and ALL the light that comes in. When I come down my stairs every morning (usually with a poor attitude about heading to work) I am blown away with the sun that shines through. And every morning I am reminded how selfish I'm being for my bad attitude. I know that lately all my posts have been the little lessons I learn on a daily basis but I think that's why I started this blog, so that I can always go back and remember what the Lord is doing in my life.
So this morning as I came down those stairs I prayed, and I thanked God for the blessing of the sun. We take so much for granted...and we have SO much to be thankful for. K and I have had some transitions in the last couple of months but that is what makes life...life and I am excited for these new changes.

Speaking of which, I can't wait to get this place organized and get some pictures posted. I have picked curtains for the kitchen and most things have a place now. Oh, and did I mention that I LOVE doing laundry?? How fun that I can just walk down to our BASEMENT and I can do my own laundry without putting quarters to make it run. I never thought I would be so happy about laundry but wow, I am so happy every time I start a new load.

So see, life can get so serious sometimes, and though we have so much to be serious about..the little things is what makes this life just so fun. I have so much to smile about, and most days I don't even know.


happy Wednesday in Jesus Christ. I'm going to go eat a bowl of ice cream and snuggle with my favorite person ever. 

love!

Boxes.

"May the God of hope fill you with

 all joy and peace in believing,

 so that by the power of the

 Holy Spirit you

 may abound in hope"
Romans 15:13

I have read this verse so many times this week trying to focus my mind and heart on my Heavenly Father remembering that nothing on this earth can steal my joy. Lately I have let the "little"  things of this world fill me with an overwhelming sense of frustration. I've been crabby, short tempered and have dealt with sadness for no reason. This is a problem that has been with me my entire life and I am daily trying to remember that my joy comes from the Lord, and the things of this earth mean little when compared to eternity. I have to remember that my only purpose on this earth is to bring Glory to my Creator and when I sit in Heaven at the feet of Jesus shouting praises to the King, I will think not at all of this world. I have to constantly remind myself that He has given me hope, a truth, and a promise that His love will endure forever so even though I allow the stresses of moving, my husband starting a new job, some long weeks of work, or whatever else I LET take control of my emotions none of it can take away my joy without my permission. This is a hard, hard thing to do, always choosing joy instead of anger, choosing peace instead of stress, choosing trust instead of fear, but thankfully I have Jesus who is always by my side. He pursues my heart, and is always so faithful to remind me just how big He is. This week as I have been packing all this "stuff" in my tiny apartment I've been humbled to remember that I could live in a far off village with one outfit, dirty water, little food, and every day would be a struggle to simply survive. Instead, my stress everyday is that I have too much "stuff" to pack. How silly is that?!?! Instead, I should be changing my heart to remember that every little thing I put in a box is a blessing, a gift from someone we love, or something that Kevin and I have added to our life. So even though exhaustion sometimes takes over and I allow these stresses to try and steal my joy, I can remember that they aren't stresses at all, they are beautiful pieces of my life..down to the smallest pan, it's probably one more pan then someone else has and I should be extremely thankful that I can put it in a box.
You see, even though I fail every..single..day..and even though I'm not bold enough in my actions, or my words, I firmly believe with my whole heart that there will be a day, when the burdens of this place will be gone, and I know that I will see Jesus face to face.

I don't want to waste this life with work stress, day to day stress, or any other trial that gets in my way because my joy comes from the Lord, and under any circumstance He is good.

So today, I am thankful for these boxes. I am thankful that they are piled up high because each one represents a blessing that God has given even though I don't deserve any of them. Today I am thankful for a husband, who has helped me fill these boxes not just with "stuff" but with memories, for he has given me so much to treasure.
Today, I am thankful that even through my bad attitude and sinful nature my God loves me, and he harshly and lovingly teaches me the lessons I need to remember.


happy friday friends... be joyful and remember that this life is short, we can not waste a single day.