Thursday, January 21

And so it begins...

I can't believe we are coming to the end of January! My spring semester has started and I finished my first full week of classes. It felt weird, nice, exciting, uneasy, and exhausting to be back in a classroom after being in Texas for so long. I realized that I DO enjoy sitting in class and learning all new information but the part I dread is coming home to a pile of homework knowing the real work ALWAYS begins outside of the classroom.
Today I was reminded how self-absorbed I can be though...I have started to get overwhelmed with homework, and trying to find a job and as I was reading the newest caringbridge update on Jordan God humbled me and I knew right away how selfish I was being. I have always been a big complainer but I need to remember that there are SO many people with REAL struggles and the things in my life seem so small compared to them. Jordan is spending his 18th birthday in a hospital bed, and yet I sit here and complain to God that I have "too much on my plate". I guess I was just frustrated because it always feels like just when I want to do better in life, my flesh wins out!

So, for the POSITIVES! God has given me SO many blessings! Class has started, and though that comes with hours upon hours of studying and homework..God has given me the ability to get it all done and I am healthy and able to have such good education. I think I am going to like my classes this semester, I am taking Medical Terminology, Body Structure and Oral Communications. I love my medical classes and I look forward to further studying the human body. God created amazing beings and there is so much to learn from his creation.

Kevin comes home in March! :D I wish I could portray HOW happy that makes me!!!!! I can't wait to have him home and do what "normal" couples would do! Let me just smile again! :)

I have been in Wisconsin for a couple weeks and though the transition was harder than expected, I do have peace that I am where God wants me to be. I am so thankful for my time in Texas but I am excited to continue my life here.

So, I know my blogging will get less and less because my fingers will be exercised enough with all the typing I'll be doing. I am thankful that God has reminded me of the life He has given me and though most days I feel like I am failing miserably at being the person He wants, I know that His love is forever..and his grace really is sufficient.

I'm listening to Chris Tomlin...

"My chains are gone
I've been set free
My God, my Savior has ransomed me
And like a flood His mercy reigns
Unending love, amazing grace"

Sunday, January 3

Welcome 2010!

I know it's been a while since I've blogged but the month of December seemed to come and go in literally a blink of an eye. I don't even know where to begin or how to explain what a whirlwind it's been. I am now back in the frozen tundra of WI and it's been nuts being home. My experience in TX was one that I will never forget. I made new friends, and shared memories that I will cherish forever. I am completely convinced that everyone needs a time in their life where they can step out of that comfort zone and experience new things. Spending time in Texas was a time for me to be with my family and allow God to do new things in my life. That is exactly what happened. I was reminded once again how blessed I truly am and God just spilled his love and mercy on me.

My grandparents are two of the most amazing people I know and I am blessed to have two people that love me that much, they opened up their home and I will never be able to fully express in words how grateful I am to them, my Aunt and Uncle and everyone else in Texas who made me feel welcomed. The love they have for me is overwhelming.

2009 was full of excitement, heartbreak, change, memories, friends, new relationships, failures, new friendships, and lots and lots of searching for God's all surpassing peace and forgiveness.
I have come to realize that life is an everyday new challenge and we must Seek the Face of God every moment if we are to live a truly happy life. He is our all in all and even in all of my failures and screw ups, He always has me in the palm of His hands.
I look forward to this upcoming year and to watch as God works in the lives of others and myself, it is so exciting to watch as His will is revealed!
A few exciting things that will be happening in 2010!

Starting a new semester and working hard at school.
Kevin coming HOME! :)
Grant and Ericha welcoming Lilah in March!!!
Spending time with the people that are most important to me.

I pray God guides me in Wisdom as I begin to start a new year! We never know what life may bring, but we can be prepared to trust all wonderful Jesus every step of the way!