Monday, October 25

My Job.

Lately things have been so busy. And I've been struggling with these questions..

What is my job?

How can I serve Christ better? Who is Christ to me?

Am I Growing in my walk with God?

OR Am I playing it safe?

Am I living out the Truth of God's Word,
Am I just staying where it's comfortable.

I know God is not done with me, my marriage, or my future.
How can I make those things better?
How can I ensure that I am living the life He has intended?
What am I doing to move ahead, step outside the box and really SERVE God.

The most important one of all..

Is my heart completely His?
I know the answer to that, and I know what I believe, what I want, and who I want to be.
It's getting there and constantly seems to be the daily struggle.

I know Christ is calling out and demanding more of me..but how can I figure this crazy world out.

I know God won't relent until He has it all, my heart MUST be His.
He is that seal upon my heart, guiding me, leading me, and teaching me how to love...

His love is as strong as death, nothing can quench this thrist, I long to know Him, seek His face, and know His truths.

I want Christ to be the fire that drives me, I want His promises to be the ones that guide me, and build me into the woman I am so trying to be.

The problem is, lately...
I haven't been trying.

I feel like I've been so overwhelmed with my worldly issues that I haven't been trying.
I am in neutral. My husband, homework, computer, apartment, job, and daily activities have come first.
I haven't been giving God my whole heart, or time.
And it stops now.

I need to be better, for Kevin..for my family, for me, and for my Creator.
He derserves all the glory and honor. He derserves it all.

This is why I write, to help clear my head and heart so I can see whats important.

I've been reading my past blogs and it has been a great reminder of what God has been doing in my life over the the last year.

His grace and faithfulness has been overwhelming. I don't know where I would be without His Word.

So this is me, saying that I will do better..I have too.

My husband deserves it, he needs more of me.

My God deserves it, He needs more of me.


Thursday, October 14

Pure and Perfect

These last couple of days have been some I will remember forever. Maybe I'm being over emotional, maybe I'm just a big fat baby, but I truly don't care. Watching my brother graduate Basic training, walk around base as a trained American Soldier and being reunited after 10 weeks was an experience I will always hold dear. Words can't describe the pride of I feel for him, my family, and my Country. I am so honored to live in a Country where men and women give up their lives to protect my freedom. I am humbled by their sacrifices, and this weekend I was reminded just how blessed I am to live in the United States of America.

It's been very common knowledge that I love taking photos. In fact, its very rare that you see me without my camera in hand. I simply can't help it, anytime I don't have it I'm always scared I might miss something.

People have always asked me why I love taking pictures, which is so hard to answer...usually my answer involves, "Oh, its so fun" or something lame like that. I have never really been able to put into words. After going through my pictures of this reunion I can finally describe why I love photography. And let me tell you, it has nothing to do with fancy equiptment, perfect lighting, crisp photos, beautiful backgrounds, or how badly you want that "perfect" shot. All those things are great..(and things I still strive to have) but you see, it has to do with whats going on behind the lens. These are the moments my heart rejoices in. The moments we all strive to capture.

In these precious and perfect moments you remember what is important, what really matters. It's about what's happening within those moments that you cry and thank God for everything you have. Raw, pure, beautiful, life. Moments in time that only love and  pure selflessness create...this is what we long for, hope for, and strive to have. This is what you work towards and long to have. These moments are what make this life worth living for, worth fighting for, worth making.

Once and awhile just as my finger snaps that shot it happens, I capture life.

Thank you God for giving me those moments, 
but more importantly thank you for giving me
the people that make them great.

Monday, October 11

Love is in the air.

This past weekend I had the honor of not only attending a sweet friends marriage but she asks me to capture all the beautiful moments. I was so nervous. As soon as I had my Cannon in hand though all those nerves turned to excitement. I love taking pictures..I love weddings...this was the perfect day.

Many more to come soon. :)

Friday, October 8

I've been tagged!

Vennessa over at My Crazy Blessed Life tagged me! I am WAY too busy to play the entire game but I thought it was so sweet of her for thinking of me so I will be answering the questions!

1. What is the one thing you can not live without?

This question is hard for me, because there are many things that would literally make life impossible to live without but when you think of it long term and us all going to Heaven, well then..the only thing I can't live without is Jesus.
( But..yes, I'll say it.. I would probably have a mild heart attack without my makeup.) :)

2.What is your favorite childhood story?

Well, I have many stories I absolutely love but one of my favorites is when my best friend and I took the gold fish out of our tank and then told me my mom " We only wanted to pet it"

3. What advice would you give to others that you live by?

Stay off of hwy 41 during construction season..really folks, its NUTS.

4. What is your favorite Christmas song/carol?

I LOVE Christmas songs, in fact..I would probably play them year round if people didn't look at me like I had lost my marbles. I would have to say that my favorite is O Holy Night.

5. What traditions would you like to pass on to your child/ren?

There are many things that KJ and I have talked about doing with our children someday. One tradition for sure I would love to carry is the "Blessing Jar" You see, every we did this in my family for a short time and it was SO amazing. At the start of Jan. you put a jar somewhere visible in your house. The entire family secretly writes down their "blessings" and puts them into a jar. On Thanksgiving morning you all sit around and take turns pulling out blessings and reading them.
It is truly an amazing way to realize just how blessed you are

6. Cat or Dog Lover?

Dog.  :)

7. What is your Favorite thing to do to relax?
That is easy, take a nice long bubble bath. :) KJ always knows when I'm a little stressed because I grab a book, some music and I hide away in the bath tub. It always does this girl SO MUCH GOOD.
8. What goal would you like to accomplish that you haven't done yet?
This is the hardest question yet...I have SO many goals I would love to accomplish. I guess the one that always lingers in the back of my mind is the Breast Cancer Susan G. Komen 60 mile, 3 day walk. Breast cancer awareness is very important to me and one day I would love to walk for the cause.

Thanks for letting me play along Venessa and thinking of me! :)

Have a wonderful weekend everyone!

Wednesday, October 6

What I'm loving Wednesday...

I'm loving sitting on the couch at my parents house waiting for clothes to dry. It's SUCH a blessing being able to not PAY for my laundry this week.

I'm loving this beautiful fall weather. Watching God's handiwork as the leaves turn colors.

I'm loving that I got a little extra sleep this morning, I've been SO tired lately.

I'm loving that even though its only been a day, I'm missing my hubby so much.

I'm loving that today I received a new lens for my camera, and this weekend I get to capture the precious moments at my friends wedding.

I'm loving that God has been tugging at my heart lately, I need to listen to Him SO much more.

Most of all, today I'm loving that this time next week I will be with my brother. He has been gone for 3 months at basic training and next Thursday he graduates.

I'm loving my God is so good.

Monday, October 4

Today I had an exam...all on our bodies "tissues" I passed with no problem ( I was freaking out) and then sat through a 3 hour lecture on our bodies "bones". This class is rough...but I truly am learning so much.

Lately, I've been intrigued by the smallest things. Like, watching birds fly..I mean, I know we see it but is incredible how they just soar around like they own the place.
And, what about the trees turning colors, how they came up with the scents of flavored lip glosses, really..the "blueberry" scent doesn't smell like a blueberry?
How horses know that getting in that big trailer means they are leaving ( it took us over an hour to get my horse in the trailer last night)
Or..have you ever thought about fish, cars, airplanes? All of these random things are constantly popping into my head. They are things we see or deal with everyday but when you stop to actually think about it I get so shocked. It really is amazing how the world functions everyday, but yet we hardly take the time to think about it.

I am now going to blow up a bunch of balloons to throw all of my house, clean, and eagerly await the arrival of the birthday boy so we can hop in the car and go pick up my mom from the airport. I am actually looking forward to the trip to MKE..just me and KJ for over an hour..together.

*Happy Monday Everyone!

No time

I really have no time. Today is my {amazing} husbands birthday and I hardly have any time to do anything special.

Work. Homework. Classes. Exams...

That is my life.

Oh well... no matter how busy I get I can still choose to be in love with my life, and let me tell you....

It's a pretty great one.

Happy Birthday Kevin..I can't imagine my world without you.