Right in front of us.

I've always heard people say that God uses their children to teach them about, well about everything. The minute I found out I was pregnant it became evident that God would use this child to reveal Himself in big ways in my life.
It's impossible to have a child and NOT learn from them.

Well, for the first time God used Tanner in a very specific way to teach me something that I guess I've been dealing with and didn't even know it.
His faithfulness amazes me everyday. 

It was a normal morning, me trying to hold my eyelids open so I could see well enough to lay Tanner on the floor while I made my breakfast and prepared the coffee. I put the blanket down (which is pointless because he doesn't stay on it) got out all of his favorite toys in hopes he would be amused long enough for me to accomplish my tasks. 
Instantly I watched as my son slightly glance at his bright, new, baby toys and then proceeded to do his version of army crawling towards the computer and cords across the room.
He isn't very fast yet so he grunts and squeals while doing his very best to get to the one thing hes not allowed to touch in the room.
I sort of chuckled and placed him back in front of his toys.

 Again he instantly spun around and diligently moved towards the computer.

After having a small lesson in "no touch" I moved him back in front of his toys and showed him those were the toys he was allowed to play with.
Again he wanted nothing to do with his toys and started his mission towards the computer.
And in that moment as I watched him head towards the computer God so clearly showed me an ugly picture of myself.
How many times in life does He place beautiful blessings right in front of me and I barely glance at them while I head towards other "things" of this world. How often does He bless me simply because of his unconditional love and yet I ignore those only to run after the things He instructs me not to touch.
I picked up Tanner, asked forgiveness to God and thanked Him for reminding me that I have so many things in this world.
Thankful.
He has commanded me to be thankful. 

And not because of the many blessings I have but because He died on the cross and through Him I have victory.

I have a feeling this will not be the last time God will use Tanner to reveal sin and even when those moments are uncomfortable, I am so thankful He is faithful to teach me every day.

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Beautiful Lord.

I don't have a lot to say except that we serve a beautiful Lord. There could possibly be some big changes in our household but one thing that always remains is our beautiful, and merciful Lord. He is constant, He is strong, He is always true. His promises and grace that spill on my life are overwhelming, I can't imagine what it would be like without them.

I pray you are all having a wonderful week, and if you are having a tough one, remember..On that Cross He showed his love for us, He is awesome and mighty and we should always be captured by the love we see.
He is tender and Holy, and He loves us so much.

Good day.

Today was one of those days you love.

Lazy day at home, but with much accomplished.

Kj got a day off, which was much needed. In fact, it was an answered prayer. We have both been overwhelmed lately, and feeling a little down each night. It's been tough, but we have both been praying and today was just what we needed. God is so faithful, and I'm so thankful for the love He spills over His children.

The apartment is clean, and I was able to enjoy every minute with my husband. He makes me so happy. Can you believe it's been 3 months already? I feel like it was just yesterday he was headed to Kuwait and I was waiting anxiously by my computer for each and every email.


Now it's time to get ready for a fun-filled weekend with a 9 month old. My friend is dropping off her little girl so her and the hubby can get away for the weekend. He just returned from a 7 month deployment from Afghanistan and it will be so nice for them to spend some time together. Kj and I are also looking forward to having a baby all weekend. :)


I'm hoping to add some pictures soon, darn internet connection is SO slow. :)

Have a great weekend. Enjoy every moment.

My Job.

Lately things have been so busy. And I've been struggling with these questions..

What is my job?

How can I serve Christ better? Who is Christ to me?

Am I Growing in my walk with God?

OR Am I playing it safe?

Am I living out the Truth of God's Word,
Am I just staying where it's comfortable.

I know God is not done with me, my marriage, or my future.
How can I make those things better?
How can I ensure that I am living the life He has intended?
What am I doing to move ahead, step outside the box and really SERVE God.


The most important one of all..


Is my heart completely His?
I know the answer to that, and I know what I believe, what I want, and who I want to be.
It's getting there and constantly seems to be the daily struggle.

I know Christ is calling out and demanding more of me..but how can I figure this crazy world out.

I know God won't relent until He has it all, my heart MUST be His.
He is that seal upon my heart, guiding me, leading me, and teaching me how to love...

His love is as strong as death, nothing can quench this thrist, I long to know Him, seek His face, and know His truths.

I want Christ to be the fire that drives me, I want His promises to be the ones that guide me, and build me into the woman I am so trying to be.

The problem is, lately...
I haven't been trying.

I feel like I've been so overwhelmed with my worldly issues that I haven't been trying.
I am in neutral. My husband, homework, computer, apartment, job, and daily activities have come first.
I haven't been giving God my whole heart, or time.
And it stops now.

I need to be better, for Kevin..for my family, for me, and for my Creator.
He derserves all the glory and honor. He derserves it all.


This is why I write, to help clear my head and heart so I can see whats important.

I've been reading my past blogs and it has been a great reminder of what God has been doing in my life over the the last year.

His grace and faithfulness has been overwhelming. I don't know where I would be without His Word.

So this is me, saying that I will do better..I have too.

My husband deserves it, he needs more of me.

My God deserves it, He needs more of me.